Annnd I’m Back

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So, my time is up. Maternity leave is officially over and yesterday I made my return to work. I kissed my little princess as much as possible and told her how much her mommy loves her. She just looked me in the eyes and laughed and smiled.

I know she’s fine in the hands of the ladies at her school. I know she’ll grow and be happy and learn so much. It doesn’t change the way my heart feels. It’s the same pang I had when I went back to work after having her brother. I’m convinced that I couldn’t have another child and do this again. It’s so hard to let go. I feel like the next time I see her she’ll be crawling. Those milestones are going to start coming at lightning speed now.

I’ve been enjoying watching her figure out how to use her hands. She’s grabbing everything in sight. At the same time, it saddened me to see the beginnings of her growth. I know it’s just that, the beginning. It does not matter how many times my mother and friends tell me it will be alright. Even though I know it’s true and I know they mean well, I want it to be better than alright.

On the flip side of that, going back to work is like going home. I’ve been with the same network for nearly nine years. The people are like family for the most part. It’s a very comfortable place to be. Everyone was happy to see me even if it was mixed with shock. Absolutely no one expected me to return. Either they know how I feel about my babies or they know how much child care is. Either way, it felt good to be missed. It’s a little like the love I shower on my children because God knows I miss them when we’re apart.

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13 Responses to Annnd I’m Back
  1. This Cookn Mom
    November 6, 2012 | 9:08 am

    I totally feel you! Going back to work is bittersweet. I hate missing anything. When I went back to work and my husband would call and tell me of the baby’s “firsts”, I would get mad and lie and tell him oh, she already did that for me…Lol.

  2. Krissy
    November 6, 2012 | 10:25 am

    Aww Cam I know the feeling. It does get better but it takes a min to adjust. It took a min for me to get used to not being home with her and you’re right, the milestones seemed to come so fast when she was in daycare. *hugs* thats all i can offer because I know how you feel.

  3. Baby Shopaholic
    November 6, 2012 | 10:44 am

    Going back to work is tough! If we have another I told him I wasn’t going back!

  4. Liz @ A Nut in a Nutshell
    November 6, 2012 | 11:16 am

    I’m glad you were welcomed back so warmly. The same thing will happen when you get home every night. 🙂

  5. Natalie
    November 6, 2012 | 12:31 pm

    Awww I know this must be so hard for you! Sending you hugs!

  6. YUMMommy
    November 6, 2012 | 2:05 pm

    I can’t say that I know what it feels like because I work from home, but it’s always great to be loved and missed. That’s one thing I miss about working outside of the home. Thankfully, I still keep up with a few of my former co-workers.

  7. Collen
    November 6, 2012 | 9:40 pm

    Glad to hear about your ‘Welcome Back’ mission. Keep it running.

  8. Fatima Hipolito
    November 6, 2012 | 11:22 pm

    Hi there its nice to be back SIS, hows your vacation leave…

  9. The Mrs./ The Mom
    November 7, 2012 | 11:18 am

    I’m glad you had a good first day back. WhenI went back the first week was cool then after that i was so over it! I wanted to be home with my little guy!

  10. Bernetta
    November 7, 2012 | 11:48 am

    Awwwwwww I know how you feel. I just talked to my manager about taking 12 weeks. She asked me to take 6!! WTW!! I said 12 love!!

  11. Cari Wegner (@bubblegumcari)
    November 7, 2012 | 4:18 pm

    Well, yes, going back sucks! No easy way around it. Being a Mom/woman is so darn hard. Either way it ‘feels’ like a lose/lose, because we want it all. Even having a little bit of everything doesn’t quite fill us up sometimes. Women through the ages will be trying to find that unattainable balance. But you know, nothing feels better than coming home to your babies at night and hugging and kissing them. Go get ’em girl! You can do this;)

  12. Mrs. Pancakes
    November 7, 2012 | 6:37 pm

    Welcome back….i go back to work next week and i am dreading it but i am excited too!

  13. LaShawn
    November 9, 2012 | 7:37 am

    Going back is hard! i’m not sure I would be able to go back if I had another!

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