If I’m being honest, I can say that I’m loving life right now. I’m getting time to spend with my family and that feels good.
Before this life change, I had been on the fence about what I wanted to do career wise. I loved being a producer at one point. I had done it for so long though that I was wondering what else there was that I might like to do. I wondered if there was something else in television that I wanted to try. I felt like I owed it to myself to find out if I would like something more than I liked being a producer. Nothing was standing out to me as far as what I’d like to try. But my eyes were open.
Since the company closure, I have this clean slate to check out all options, it feels like a blessing. As I am tossing around ideas, I’m also keeping my options open.
What I know is that since the time my son was about 4 months, I haven’t wanted to leave his side. I had a hard time leaving him at daycare. I transitioned him and his sister for four weeks each. I was there with them everyday over four weeks to make sure they were comfortable and I was comfortable. As much as I LOVED their school, it never got easier for me to drop them off at school.
Today, it feels like I am undercover. Or an actress doing research for a role. That’s what this new life feels like. As I get used to be at home, being a part of the SAHM scene, I feel like I am getting an insiders view to something I’ve been curious about for years. From what I’m experiencing, the solidarity of SAHM’s is real. Maybe I’ve just been lucky enough to meet really nice moms. I dunno. Beyond that, I am getting a front row seat to the development and growth of my babies. Money can’t buy that.
I can’t say I’m exactly sure about what the future holds. What I do know is Who holds the future. With that, I’m taking each day as it comes. As long as I get the opportunity to be a SAHM, I’m soaking it in and appreciating the gift of it all.
That’s where my heart is. What’s going on with you?