I’ve said nothing. I avoided the topic completely. I turned my head or the channel whenever it came on TV. The Casey Anthony trial is impossible to avoid now. I don’t know if I wanted to pretend it didn’t exist. I don’t think that’s it. I think I just knew that I couldn’t handle knowing the details.
It hurts me to hear of anything happening to a child. As simple as a child falling and scraping their knee hurts me. When I hear of stories of abuse I am almost physically sickened. It makes it especially hard when those kids are around the same age as my child. Toddlers, pre-school age kids and younger are the epitome of innocence. I see that more than ever now that I am a mom. I can’t stand to hear people take advantage of that innocence or to have the innocence of that life snuffed out. For these reasons, I knew I couldn’t follow closely the coverage of the Casey Anthony trial.
I don’t know who killed Caylee Anthony. I know that overwhelmingly it seemed as if her mother was guilty. I didn’t follow the trial enough to know why she was found not guilty. Based on the few things I do know, there must have been some incredible holes in the case for her to get off. The verdict came out while I was at work. I knew it was coming down and avoided the television. My friend came over to my desk outraged at what she’d just heard. Not. Guilty. For some reason, those two words prompted me to break my silence on this case.
All I could think about is guilty or not guilty Caylee Anthony is still dead. She’s still gone. Someone took her young life and no one is paying for it. No one is going to jail for it. No one is being punished. Unfair doesn’t begin to describe how this feels. It’s beyond that. I don’t know if the word exists to describe how it feels. I know that who ever killed that little girl will pay. No one can get away with something so horrible and not pay. It may be that they are haunted for the rest of their lives; it may be that the end up going to jail later for something totally different or it may be that judgment day provides true vengeance. I don’t know how judgment will be delivered; I just know that it will happen. It has too. That’s all I have to hold on to.